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| ... of a GrX pastor. Where to start? fasting has me wiped out every night so I'm hitting the bed early and not making it too far in my two books (Jihad vs. McWorld, How Globalism and Tribalism are reshaping the World and a highly recommended classic by one of my favorite authors-- Lesslie Newbigin, Foolishness to the Greeks). One thing I appreciate about fasting is that it takes energy away from typical pursuits and allows for more time to pray and think... and waking up way early b/c you crashed early the night before. Since Dave moved our prayer time from 6:15am to 9am, I chilled in my warm bed, showered and read more on David. What a mix of testosterone and the Holy Spirit. Chapters 21-24 are sweet. "Men, strap on your swords!" Young King David is such a mentor to me. Real, focused, humble, strong, leader, dependent and it has to be said again, real. His Psalms our food to my soul. He's a poet and warrior. Did not relaize that guys today wrote much until I discovered Xanga last week. The more I get to know David in the Word the more I see why men flocked to him and became his "mighty men," dudes that would sacrifice their own lives to get him some water to drink. So... I admire his character yet resist the circumstances in my life that develop such Godly men.... pain. Fasting is helping me not to resist... and to embrace the struggle... After juicing grapes, an apple and a pear and dropping my daughter off at school, it was off to work (ha! off to battle the forces of hell!). met and prayed with Dave for 90 minutes and then the same with Andy for 45. the devil's losing and gonna lose some more ground as He extends the kingdom thru grx and friends. No appt's this afternoon so it was 6 hours of straight administration stuff... ugh! After 14 years in college ministry, I feel like I'm administrating the Great Commission vs. disciple-making. What was nice though was sharing more of the workload of Kids club with others today and now it's time to do the same with Beautiful Day, Urbana, etc.. I need to not take on admin rolls long-term and get back to developing men into Christ-like kingdom warriors and culture shapers. Got home at 6 and took over cooking for judy while she went for a long run. Potstickers and the works. Enjoyed the smells but not the taste and watched my girls eat half their dinners until I brought down the hammer and said no going to the Lo's to make cookies tonight. It's sad, we've defaulted way too much to bribes and consequences with our 3 girls to get them to execute my daily game plan. Sheeez, am i coach rob or their dad. anyways, dropped them off at natalie's and then went to the library to check out a movie for the week. closed. went to blockbuster and that was brillant, taking a 2 year old into a place with 1000 items that she can reach and pull off the shelves. Rented walk the line b/c a few buddies said it's good and 90% of movies have breasts, blood or guns all over the cover. Blockbuster is one of the only places that does not rent porn, but sheez... they rent everything else. Note to self-- keep praying and by faith blockbuster will look much different when my grandchildren walk the ailes when they are two. Juiced some carrots and celery for dinner while Judy went to pick up the girls, guess her and Uyanga are hanging out with Natalie. Great time to read blogs and make a post. By faith... | | |
| yo GrX, Anyone going to Urbana http://urbana.org/ ???
I want to do a group registration. Let me know (rob.schulze@grx.org) by Friday the 13th if you want to you an amazing experience. Dec 27-31st.
Now be honest-- is it lame for me to use Xanga to mix kingdom business with pleasure? Learning Xanga ethics... with your help!
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| Let's see if this worked!
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| For seven years I have journaled on my computer. I would remind myself whenever I was brutally honest that no one other than my God would know, read or see these words, even my wife (thus preventing nice sanitized entries). In the last few years, I have noticed that (1) I care a whole lot less of what people think of me, (2) I usually end up sharing 99% of what I journal (in time) with my wife and friends, and (3) most people (especially men) think, vent, cut-up, talk smack, struggle, fight, chill, sin and love in ways that connect with my soul and there's a mutual benefit from being in community.
Community to me is face-to-face, food, eye contact, body language, push, shove, eat and (what I am learning from being a pastor at a 90% Asian church) eat some more. For years I was an arrogant skecptic that the internet can be a source for community and friendships. That is, until I took the plunge into playing fastasy babeball last year and found myself talking smack and (surprisingly) talking life with 9-11 other dudes and a dudette. As a result, I'm taking the plunge and we'll see where this goes. I understand that I will probably never be able to run for public office as my views tend to offend both religious and non-religious alike, republicans and democrats, urbanites and suburbanites... but what the heck, as I have previously stated, I care a whole lot less of what people think because...
... what truly matters to me, beyond loving my God and loving people, are 3 things that have been the theme of my journal entries (or laments, cries, confessions, shouts, etc.) these past few years. Grace, glory and the Kingdom. To be continued...
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